You know, I really wish that school and work would stop getting in the way of my personal life. There's not nearly enough time in our days right now to have fun and be together. Friday night was an exception (it was Friday and we didn't have to wake up at the ass crack of dawn). So, after a couple of nights of emails back and forth, and videos sent both ways, it was time for some early weekend fun. Normally, when I am done, we are both done, but tonight a came up with a grand scheme to re-start some ass training that was started months ago and came to a halt because, once again, school and work got in the way. So, in an effort to start fresh and make use of our box of toys again, we're gonna take some baby steps and work his ass back to what it was capable of a little while ago. I'll have to let you know how that goes, given that a has a tendency to roll over and FALL ASLEEP after I let him cum. Every time, he always says, "I won't! I won't!" And then he goes and does it again, giving some excuse like "Not right now," or "I'm too tired." Yesterday I told him I'm going to start punishing him for doing that, and I don't think he believed me. You know what? That's fine with me, because he's sure gonna believe me when he wakes up to a dildo up his ass or my mouth on his cock. Until then, I'll just let him go about life as normal. ;)
So I got The Mistress Manual yesterday, and so far so good. It's a really interesting read, to say the least. Completely comprehend-able! I'm so freaking excited to finish it!
Anyway, more to come soon; sorry so short, but life's handed Me a hectic weekend. Hopefully next time around I'll have some kind of Punishment Plan for a. Hopefully that is something that is do-able and can take my mind off of reality for a little while.
It kind of sucks that this post had to be the second one in, but BLAH. I wish I would have stayed home today; I wish I would have been able to sleep before 4:30 this morning; and I wish I could start the past 24 hours over again, because they really sucked. Let's face it: it's winter, it's snowing, and that makes me depressed enough in itself, let alone even thinking about gratifying my sexual urges. It's quite a rut, but we all know that life goes on... hopefully.
I've tried discussing with a the potential to bring a third party into the picture. I'm not so sure about how he feels about another male, but apparently he wants to wrangle in a female. Although I think it would be a lot of fun to bring someone else in, I still have my concerns. Don't get me wrong. I'm really excited about the opportunity, but I don't know if the idea is completely sitting right in my head. It probably doesn't help that a wants 2 females and I want 2 males. That could cause some disruption and disagreements.. real quick. I've always wanted to be with 2 males at the same time; just the thought of that happening to me turns me on. a seems to just want to find a girl and jump in, but (not to sound rude) I still have standards and there are things that I think should be considered before diving in head first. The thing is: I have a willing male and another potential male if all else fails miserably in this search; but where's the female a wants so terribly bad? Haha =)
Anyway, last night was another massaging adventure. I tried using more pressure and movement, and I think that I might be on to something. This time a didn't move for about 5 minutes afterward. I almost thought he fell asleep (he falls asleep... way too easily), but no... He was just laying there, ass bare, and just taking it all in. It was sexy. I wanted to jump him right then & there, but he probably didn't have it in him. It didn't help that we only had two hours before we had to wake up again, but at least the last memories I had of a before I went to sleep were hot and bothering. He was laying back and relishing his last milking before rules are set in place. At least he understood that part. Lord help us if he didn't. From now on, any sexual gestures are to be earned (I should probably get on that, come to think of it).
I've been contemplating the benefits of having a weekend-long escapade. It's something a and I have talked about before, but a gets sooo sidetracked with school and work and recreation that it never happens. Either that or his dad is present... Not so fun. But really.. if we could just lock ourselves in the bedroom for one weekend I would be the happiest person on the planet. I just want to restrain his body from movement and have at him. I want to make him to dirty things to me, and I don't care. I think some planning beforehand is definitely in order. Ohh, the things we could accomplish in 48 hours... I could get everything I want out of him, and he lay there, restrained, and I'll leave him with the simple hope that maybe, if he's a good boy for me, he might receive some dirty tricks in return. If I could get him to shut up and lay still long enough, I could edge & stretch that boy for hours and not get tired. I love experiencing what his body can do. It's kind of funny that the things that society sees as taboo are some of the most amazing things the body is capable of!
Gosh, I can't get the mmf & weekend escapade scenarios out of my head. I should be set to daydream mode for class now, thank God. Maybe I'll be able to think of some good ideas and cook up something new to try. I do enjoy finding something new and having it work out in my favor. Hopefully the rest of today will be a little bit more fruitful than the way it started.
Somehow, I can't really say that I am surprised that this is where I ended up, to be honest. I kind of look at it in a "you had it coming" kind of sense. I don't really know when all of it clicked, but all of a sudden I realized that this was something I was really interested in; this was the kind of lifestyle you wouldn't bring home to your mom and pops. It's something I accepted, even though I honestly would tell the world, including my parents if it were only appropriate. I'm not sure what caused me to turn onto it, but after some thorough research, I was hooked. Not just a slight enthusiasm, but more like a need to learn and live. It's weird because the things I was reading were nothing like the kind of person people take me as, and I'm sure that if my friends were told, more than a few would bust a gut in laughter. It doesn't really discourage me, but I feel like it's my dirty little secret that only a few trustworthy people know about. I'd kind of prefer to keep it that way, but hey, if the stars align in juuust the right way, I think I could trust someone with that sentiment sometime later on.
It feels exciting to know that my significant other, a, is just as much into this wonderful little scheme as I am. I'm actually pretty thrilled because I haven't had a significant other come right out and tell me exactly what they want and what they are interested in sexually, both physically and in their mind. It's seriously such a turn on to see and watch a talk about the lifestyle. It's an exciting move for the both of us, and I really couldn't be more happy!
For me, personally, this is quite the step up. Up until about two years ago, when I met a, a lot of the sexual prowess (I guess you can say) in me stayed quite hidden. I didn't have a lot of significant others growing up, and hell, I was in school, and I wasn't about to let my fantasies out to play. Then a came along and kind of helped me figure out what I was really capable of, to say the least. I love to try new things and figure out what I am capable of doing, and believe me, the gratification that crosses a's face when I find something that works is sooo worth my time and investment.
I feel that the past two or three nights are a good example of said gratification. Two and three nights ago I just laid in bed next to a and loved him up a little bit. There's nothing more fun than watching him squirm while he's under my hand. It makes it feel like he is depending on me, and I love that feeling to no end. After about two hours of rubbing and touching, I finally let him cum, but there was no stopping the whimpering and whining coming from his end before I let that happen. And like last night, (let's keep in mind that a never ceases to amaze me at the things that happen inside of our sexual relationship with each other) I can honestly say that was one of the most powerful experiences in our two years. I love it when touching and kissing turns into a semi-full blown ass play session! I can't even begin to describe it. It's like he turns all control over the situation to me, and that's when I can run with it. I just messed around with his ass for a while... Not too much play (it was late; we were tired; and school & work were calling our names), but enough to make him cum twice in ten seconds. I've never seen it happen before, but damn! I felt like one of the sexiest people alive in that moment. He didn't really admit to knowing that he managed to cum twice in one orgasm, but it was like a little blow, and I thought he was done... All of a sudden a volcano erupted. Just the sounds he made alone were enough to throw me over the edge, but of course, he did deserve it.
Our deal was that he was to shower and give me two really good orgasms in bed, and then I would return the favor once over if I felt he deserved it. One orgasm for me and one more powerful orgasm for me, there he was, sighing in relief and bliss. I... felt... great! I feel like I definitely need to cut deals with him more often; when he wants something, then goddamn that boy will work to earn it. I'm glad he feels that way, because he'd be in trouble if not. It's kind of sweet to know that my words will drive him to do those things. Damn; that's exciting!
You know, I really wish that school and work would stop getting in the way of my personal life. There's not nearly enough time in our days right now to have fun and be together. Friday night was an exception (it was Friday and we didn't have to wake up at the ass crack of dawn). So, after a couple of nights of emails back and forth, and videos sent both ways, it was time for some early weekend fun. Normally, when I am done, we are both done, but tonight a came up with a grand scheme to re-start some ass training that was started months ago and came to a halt because, once again, school and work got in the way. So, in an effort to start fresh and make use of our box of toys again, we're gonna take some baby steps and work his ass back to what it was capable of a little while ago. I'll have to let you know how that goes, given that a has a tendency to roll over and FALL ASLEEP after I let him cum. Every time, he always says, "I won't! I won't!" And then he goes and does it again, giving some excuse like "Not right now," or "I'm too tired." Yesterday I told him I'm going to start punishing him for doing that, and I don't think he believed me. You know what? That's fine with me, because he's sure gonna believe me when he wakes up to a dildo up his ass or my mouth on his cock. Until then, I'll just let him go about life as normal. ;)
